I'm still in nowhere land, but am not crying as much. So used to taking pictures every morning...and today I had not taken one until after 6pm. Went out to the barn around 9 with the intention of loading up the car with shavings, grain and bran (and anything else that would fit) but it was pouring and turned into hail. No way was I going to ask Gary to help in that weather. It was also very foggy.
So....I went to three different grocery stores and got a hair cut. As soon as I got home, got a fire going in the kitchen and aside from starting dinner (crockpot) was in slow or stop.
Little Wonder is sometimes sacked out in the living room....especially if Gary is in there reading. His life is different too.
He and Sid had dinner and then
it was our turn. I made beef stroganoff and a salad.
Little Wonder thought he should have some too.
I guess I can take photos of Rebel's flowers as long as they last.
In the morning I am going to get a brush box set up for Buddy so I can leave it out there. So much stuff!
Still am in need of a reason to take pictures.
Tomorrow is another day.
A big thank you to all who left such beautiful comments of support regarding Rebel.
Night all.
More hugs to you. At some point (at least in my experience) the tears are replaced by many happy memories, but that void in the morning and evening....not sure what will fill that!
ReplyDeleteIt will hurt deeply for a long time. That is because of your love for him.
ReplyDeleteThe huge gap will not be easily filled, if not at all. Meantime rest with memories, LW and Sidney for company and Gary to help when weather is better.
ReplyDeleteThere is going to be a hole, but after awhile it begins to be filled with good memories instead of grief. LW will be getting extra hugs.
ReplyDeleteWe still want to see the sunrises and sunsets. {{{hug}}}
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